Subconscious Links

FOSTER CARE

It took about a week, but Joseph had walked his way into Pennsylvania. With it being summer break from school, it was not unusual to see a small boy walking around a neighborhood or in town by himself or with a group of kids.

Joseph had been able to avoid authorities, sleeping near a cave in the woods at night, and scavenging for wild fruit and handouts that other kids gave him.

Somehow, he knew the authorities would take him away. Perhaps to a hospital, or children’s home or maybe even jail. Although he did not think he had done anything wrong, he was sure that he must need to be with relatives or a family.

The idea of living with a strange family was fearful. He had gotten used to being alone and having the company of the voices in his head, and the comforting dreams of the hooded people.

But, eventually, concerned citizens notified the authorities. They found Joseph, connected him with a social worker, and took him to a foster home. It was a group of kids that a family took care of. It must have been a children’s home, or something like it. The social worker called it the Mennonite Home. But Joseph recognized the people as being the same as the Plain People back in Ohio.

The people that had the Home, Mr. and Mrs. Zimmerman, were very nice. They made sure that Joseph was comfortable and well fed.

“We want you to be happy here with the other children, Joseph,” Mrs. Zimmerman said. “If there is ever anything you need, or want to talk about, come to me and ask.”

The social worker spent the larger part of the day there to ensure Joseph was settling in alright. She saw the name tag on his jacket, “Joseph Allen.” And that was how they called him. No one ever knew his full name was Joseph Allen Walker. But later one evening, Joseph secretly took of the jacket and hid it close to the cave he became familiar with. His name—his full name—was special to him. He had to protect it at any cost.

There was no logical reasoning about how he felt. Joseph cherished the name tag and his jacket. It was the only thing that linked him to his parents. So, he kept it away from others.

He decided he would stay with this Mennonite family for a while. And then he will go again. And his jacket and name tag will go with him.

Joseph was still silent. Purposely, he did not speak. But those in charge did not know why he was silent. Was he just afraid of people? Could he really make sounds and form words, was he just fooling everyone? Or was his vocal box damaged? Whatever the problem was, the family decided not to make a big deal about it.

Joseph was not only quiet in voice, but also displayed symptoms of trauma. The counselor felt that he must have had a difficult time, perhaps because he was orphaned. Perhaps because he had experienced a disturbance or shock of some kind. There was no one to explain why Joseph was even there. He was never linked to the fire in Ohio, or the surname of Walker.

The counselor told the Zimmerman’s that studies show a significant percentage of children exposed to trauma will later develop Post Traumatic Stress Disease (PTSD). She believed this must be the case with Joseph. If traumatic symptoms continue to linger more than three months, especially in untreated children, it becomes more difficult to recover from.

Adults can help children with this problem by understanding and recognizing the symptoms. These symptoms include hypervigilance (watchfulness, always using caution and being overly aware of their circumstances), emotional distress, nightmares, and other sleep issues. Some time had already passed while Joseph was on journey. So, his symptoms were engrained. Joseph was always very cautious of his surroundings and had wavering feelings of dread and emotional distress.

Mr. and Mrs. Zimmerman were very attentive to Joseph since they knew he was having trouble getting used to the other children and experiencing symptoms of stress. They also noticed that he stayed awake late at night, slept in a fitful state, and generally had difficulty resting and relaxing.

The other kids did not always include him in games and chores, because he did not talk. Mrs. Zimmerman made an effort to teach Joseph and the other kids common symbols used in sign language. This way, Joseph and the others could communicate easily.  They spend extra time teaching him to read and write.

Joseph began to receive a firm foundation in life since the fire. He was shown that family and their farm were top priorities for the Zimmerman’s, second only to God. He intuitively understood that living a simple life is a special way to remain close to God. The Zimmerman’s and their family are better able to keep the modern world from intruding into their home life. It was a special and comforting feeling to be there in the family. It felt safe.

This was the Pennsylvania Dutch Country, part of Lancaster County, well known for the Amish, the Mennonites, the Brethren, and the other “Plain People”. They had created a protected influence to continue in their ancestors’ ways. Contemporary elements like electricity, phones and television were believed to tear apart their devotion to God and family.

Joseph felt comfort there as a safe place to be.

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Well over a year and a half later, Joseph had become comfortable with the Zimmerman family and learned about life in the plain way. He could read now and spent many late nights reading any books he could get from the local library. Many of the books were about fishing and camping. Even though his father promised to take him on camping trips, the only thing they had time for was fishing. 

Living in his mind, he could be with his father even though he was dead. The camping books gave him the opportunity to learn the things his father would have taught him. Ideas of how to build a lean-to, gather wild greens and other growing foods was intriguing to him. Joseph knew he would use this information later.

The chores he had to do each day helped him get stronger in body. Feeding the chickens and helping the other boys work the garden made his upper body robust. He had grown several inches and his hair was longer and thicker than ever before. He had a good appetite now and felt strong.

He and the other boys were getting anxious and wishing to go into town. The holiday coming up was Independence Day and there would be crowds of local families from around the county.

It sounded like a good time, and he was ready for a little excitement. Some of the other kids wanted to go into town also, so they were allowed to walk in on their own.

Joseph enjoyed being in the hustle and bustle of the people moving around town. They were preparing for picnics and organized games. Joseph and another boy decided to participate in some of the ball games.

He was easily distracted since other children were running around with flags and streamers, yelling, and laughing and having a great time.

The day moved along quickly, and Joseph got tired and sat down next to a tree near the park. He could still see the others playing and eventually dozed off to sleep.

As the evening shadows came along, the vibrations of the day changed. Adults took over the activities and sparks started to fly. Joseph woke up blurry eyed and did not know what was happening.

Suddenly, there was a blast of firecrackers and the kids all started screaming joyfully and running around laughing.

Joseph was startled. He jumped and saw the sparks in the air, and it brought back the house fire his parents died in. He stiffened up and his mind locked into the trauma he originally suffered. It had not left him. He was only able to push it back and deal with life in new terms.

In his fear he jumped up and ran. He saw an out cropping of wildflowers and bushes and it looked safe. All he could think of was his mother calling to him, “Run, Joseph, run.” So that is what he did. He ran for about 15-20 minutes until he found a safe area, where he was alone.

He stayed there all night.  

THE CONNECTION BETWEEN JOSEPH AND DONOVAN (ALPHA AND OMEGA)

Joseph and Donavon, both just a few days difference in age were born as twin flames. They shared a Twin Flame Soul. Their combined spirit (yin-yang energies) made one complete energy.

They both experienced trauma around the same age of five years. Those traumas known as Soul Shock, separated their twin flame. It was overwhelming for both of them.  This intense pain could have shattered their spirits. If their Soul Group members had not assisted them, they may not have been able to complete the mission.

Joseph had been running, and initially tried to numb his experience as concussions, confusion and sadness blocked his thinking. It was safer to stay a loner and not speak. He spent the past few years running from the trauma he experienced after the fire that took his parents from him. He searched for the hidden spiritual self that was trying to express through him. 

Joseph did not understand his own spirituality, and that is why he started running away. He did not know how to cope with the intensity of this divine and otherworldly relationship. He hadn’t reached a point of spiritual illumination. He must face the subconscious fears that he has suppressed deep inside of him.

Joseph’s experiences took him to places to meet his spirit guides and others who assisted him in understanding a loving and compassionate approach to life.

Omega Males can have friends and close acquaintances but prefer to accomplish things on their own without the help of a group. They generally don’t belong to any groups and have no interest in being a front-runner of society. They can have connections with people from many walks of life. They are said to have superior ability in understanding life, astute strength to skillfully complete a task on their own level and have a simple pride in accomplishment without demonstrating it as “ego.”  — Magna Christophers

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Donavon on the other hand accepted his dilemma but still experienced the pain of it. His response to it was trying to control each experience with force and rage. He too spent much time in solitude, and overtly pushed people away that he felt were threatening him.

He does not realize it, but Mrs. Gardner and Ben Garran were both guiding and protecting him from afar. He would not allow them to get close to him, but they did what they could as they could.

By connecting with the pup, he embraced his link subconsciously with Joseph’s flame. Secretly he understood Joseph’s fear and emotional trauma of loss. In many ways he was further along in spiritual understanding that Joseph. He is more aware and together in logical understanding.

By harassing and intimidating him, Donavon helps Joseph face the subconscious fears that he has suppressed. It seems cruel but is necessary to accomplish the mission.

It is imperative that Alpha Males be known by their peers as being tough, clever, and popular. They require the support of their gang. This fosters relationships that are not close or meaningful. An Alpha Male may require a special connection with people once in a while, but refuses to be known personally and generally ignores meaningful relationships.  – Magna Christophers

By the time Joseph came to Laurel Run, he and Donavon were at a point that they needed to deal with each other and work out the shock they both experienced. They knew each other on a subconscious level without understanding why. Every time they encountered each other there was an explosive connection that did not make sense.

The Twin Flame Phenomenon was coming together again but had a long way to go to bring Change to society. Two sides of the same coin are needed to be effective in accomplishing goals.